berjalan2 di Pavilion aka berlagak cam org kaya..

huhu..
ritu.. ari isnin kot..ikot ateh pegi pavilion..
aku ni wlpn da almost 4 thn duk UKM, Bangi Selangor yg sgt la dekat ngn KL tu..
xpenah lg melangkah ke Pavilion.. setakat pegi KLCC, Berjaya Times Square adelah..
memandangkan ateh ajak..aku ikot la..
luckily time tu xbyk kete..x jem la senang cite..
kejap je sampai dr UKM..

ateh nk jmpe kakak dia..
so dia ajak la aku teman dia..
kami pegi food court.. tu je kot tmpat yg aku mampu..
kedai lain masuk je tp x mampu nk kuarkan duit yg sememangnye tidak banyak..

menerai (try) masakan thai.. sweet n sour chicken with fried rice..
xde la sedap sgt pon.
nasi goreng thai kat BBB tomyam lg best kot..huhu
tp xpe la.. nk rase punye pasai..

selepas berpisah ngn kakak ateh ( huhu cam kisah sedih plak)
kami pi jalan2 mencari Theobroma Chocolate Lounge..
sebabnye..ateh teringin sgt mkn strawberry chocolate..
so dia mengorder Strawberry sensation n Strawberry frappe..
we share together..
sharing is caring u know..
wallawei..sedap..

huuu...

Dysfunctional Me

im getting more n more strange
im going insane~
haha..
credit to cinema bizarre-->luv u strify n kiro!! yu,shin n romeo too~~

yup im sick and tired of this so-called life..
Am I the only one who finds no peace?

urgh!! bosan..xnak wat pape..
nk rilek je xboleh ke?
asek mghadap asimen jek~
lecturer pon asek nk bagi..bagi n bagi..
WE~
its all for ur own good..
so wat je lah..

im missing J thp max!!
damn!! bile nk comeback ni?

..being avoided..xsuke la..jgn mcm ni..cant we be just like how we used to be?hmm..

ish dak ni..if u wanna see me..come n meet me~dont just say it..aish..

i guess.. this is the real dysfunctional me~~

thesis proposal

finally, i've finished my thesis proposal..yay!!
now i can relax for a while..
esok kuar g beraya..trip to selatan with Jkasian..
waaa..xsabar..

*sgt pening coz xcukup tido~~

WAHAI SAYANG~

oh laptopku sayang..
aku harap ko dapat bersamaku at least bile da selesai proposal thesis ni..
bile aku da siap proposal ni aku akan antar ko g repair ok..
bertahan ye~ huhu..
hwaiting!!

blogging sebelum tido~

banyak mende da berlaku minggu lepas..
summary-
xdapat ikot coursemate konvoi beraye
xdapat lawan SUKEM teakwondo tournament
sebab= kena g convo abg kat UTEM melaka..

sakit gigi= problem with gigi bongsu
sakit hati= adala my relatives tu..cousin jauh..(malas nk igt, menyakitkan ati je)

duit habis
sebab= 1)bli tiket komuter g seremban n tiket bus seremban ke melaka
2)beli bunga 4 my bro..topup sket duit yg mak kasi..coz bunga tu mahal sket dr wet mak kasi..
3) beli air, sosej, burger untuk adik2 sementara tunggu convo abez..(kitorg kat luar coz my lil sis under 12 xleh masuk..i have to look after her with my lil bro) mom n dad je yg masuk hall

despite all those mende2 yang menyakitkan ati berlaku..there were few good things happened tho
1- walaupun xdapat lawan dapat gak medal coz category welter xramai
2-minggu ni ade lagi konvoi beraye..ke selatan lak
3- da x sakit gigi lagi coz da dptkan treatment
4-da xsakit ati sgt coz jumpe je kawan2 trus rase enjoy..jumpe abg azhar,izzat,alice yg da lame xjumpe..huu
5-walaupun duit byk spent, abah kasi duit more than yg aku spent..heee..

*semalam g training taekwondo..da igt taeguk 7..now mule mengingat semula taeguk 4-6..minggu depan ade grading..hopefully aku pass n dapat naik belt red2..hwaiting!!

p/s: setiap yang berlaku ade hikmahnya..good nite peeps

juz wanna write some words..

entahla.. mungkin aku da berubah dari segi emosi.. lepas praktikal ni aku cam cepat je emo.. i can easily get annoyed even with a small thing.. mungkin banyak kot menda yang aku simpan dlm hati..aku xreti nak luahkan..aku xtaw pada sape aku nak cerita.. well there are things we should keep in private but we cant just keep it forever.. it should be released from our unease mind sooner or later..if we keep it in ourself we could gone insane n crazy.. n one day we'll explode becoz we keep those matters too long..

haha..banyak menda berlaku kebelakangan ni.. i slowly began to loose my confident.. the hope n faith i have before is no longer the same ..everything seems to be more n more difficult..and decision wasnt easy to be made anymore..the more i thin the more difficult for me to choose.. i wanna be the old me who didnt really care the pros n cons..juz go with the flow.. but im an adult now.. i need to think better..choose a reasonable option.. and put in everything into consideration.. i cant no longer 'lantakla'..ermm,maybe sumtimes i will do that..haha..

*punca utama stress n tension weekend ritu adalah toothache.. pas g jumpe dentist n got treatment..trus je ok..sorry abg if ur sis ni was being irrational n easily upset time ur konvo ritu.. sakit ati ngn seseorang, sakit gigi n penat menjadikan mood trus xbaik.. mianhe..but still..congrats upon ur graduation..

summary ( 17-26 sept 09 )

17 sept..
ateh knocked at my door..'mushai, aku xjadi balik arini..aku balik sok..jom balik ngn aku n nazrin..' pe lagi..aku pon 'ok'.. haha..dapat le aku balik awal..kalo x ari sabtu la bru balik penang ngn bus..huhu..
18 sept..
bgn kol 6lbh..siap2 n tunggu ateh balik kolej dr umah makcik dia.. dekat kol 8 dia sampai..dia kemas2 brg..bersiap..kami bertolak ke KDO amik nazrin.. kol 815 lbh kurang.. bertolak kuar dr ukm..huhu.. ateh drive sampai rawang..then dia soh aku drive coz dia ngntok.. aku pon took over la.. haha.. mlm tu aku da gtaw my mom aku gilir2 ngn ateh drive n she already freaked out.. risau la coz aku xpenah lg drive jauh2 ni.. so sepanjang journey aku drive aku xgtaw pon my mom.. juz gtaw dia da sampai kat mane je..huhu.. aku drive dr Rawang sampaila ke Juru (Penang) NON STOP..huhu.. nak stp watpe..pose bknnnye leh singgah r&r minum ke hape..haha.. kol 1245 lhb krg smpai kat Juru.. tggu my mom amik lak kat sana.. jln jem gak ar kat BM..huhu..around 2 sampai umah.. da smpai umah rilek2 tdo smapi kol 4..abg kejut ajak g shopping.. aku gtaw 10 minit lg..aleh2 aku tdo smpai 445..haha.. bgn2 abg bru balik dr masjid.. dia n abah g solat asar kat masjid coz nk amik bubur lambuk yg tok ayah teringin nk makan.. abg gtaw sok la kta p shopping.. aku pon mengangguk je la.. still ngntok..
19 sept..
kol 3 kuar g The Summit BM.. ramai gak org.. my mom pesan blikan tudung.. abg nk bli kemeja for his convo t..adik nk bli bju raya dia..ihsan nk bli songkok.. mule2 jaln same..then pecah.. aku sorg g cari tdg.. abg ngn ihsan.. adik ntah g mana tah.. pastu adik call tanye aku katne..then dia smpai kat aku.. kebetulan kat kedai tu ade jual ak baju melayu.. trus la dia try n ble da seswai..dia bli sepasang.. aku pon da jumpe tdg yg my mom nak.. then muna call..' kak,jgn lupa bli jam kat mun..muna nak warna pink'..haha.. ok2..pasu ikot adik dia nk bli t-shirt.. jumpe 1 sneaker shoes.. paul smith nye brand.. tgk kat tag made in korea.. cantek gak.. adik ar tetibe dia gtaw promoter tu aku nk pakai.. padehal dia yg tgk dulu.. pape je la.. ade offer time tu..so harge dia dlm rm 100++..xigt the exact figure tp dkat 200 gak la..huu.. xmaula aku..cash ade je tp cam xrase mau bli.. nextime la kot..xelok membazir bulan pose ni..bli yang perlu je.. shopping sakan sampai xhengat time.. abg call gtaw cepat sket.. da nk kol 7 da.. nk balik solat asar lg..huhu.. so balik la.. sampai je umah trus solat asar.. trun bwh je da azan..huhu.. buke pose..
20 sept..
RAYA.. haha.. cam biase seperti tahun sebelum ni.. g solat sunat aidilfitri..ziarah kurur tok mak.. pastu melekat kat umah la.. org datang xputus2.. masuk zohor je da kurang sket org.. pe lg.. 1 family flat..tdo..huhu.. ptg tu bgn.. siap2 g jalan raye kat umah jiran2..
21 sept..
RAYA ke2.. g beraya umah tok belah mak.. n sedara2 belah mak.. kuar pagi..ptg tu bru balik..
22 sept..
RAYA ke3.. kuar jalan raya lagik.. arini jauh sket.. g kedah.. umah tok long.. kat kuala ketil.. nak g kuala ketil tu xla jauh.. tp nk masuk ke umah toklong tu lame gak la..coz cam pedalaman sket.. pastu g umah sedare lain lak.. jauh gak..tp xde plak kat umah.. huhu..xde jodoh nk jumpe coz rijan gtaw dorg bru je kuar..so balik la..
23 sept..
RAYA ke4.. tgh ari tu g beraye umah mak cik lia, pak cik mi.. aku,mak,abah,muna n ihsan je ikot..abg n adik xikot..aku la kena drive coz abg xikot.. b4 ni abg driver..arini aku driver..mak cik wat mee rebus..huhu..sodap.. pastu g umah sedara mak..cik munirah n cik saadiah.. huhu..makan je koje nye..da raye kan.. mlm tu abg soh teman dia bli contact lense..
24 sept..
RAYA ke5 xg mane2.. dok umah je.. ucu(adik abah), ayahcu, zaki n aisyah datang umah..(balik kg)..coz umah aku adelah kg ktorg..huhu..my family tggal ngn grandparents.. so umah =kg..huhu..
25 sept..dok umah je..makan..lepak..tido..
26 sept..dok umah je..makan..lepak..tido..

KESIMPULANNYA..
1 bulan pose berat turun 3 kg..
7 ari kat umah RAYA.. berat naik 5 kg kot..huhu..
GILA!! pasni kena jogging petang2..huhu..

im not regretting it..

i was in the dilemma few hours before the grading test.. and i asked for opinion..
and what i decided is to postpone it till i'm fully ready.. i was thinking of getting out tonite..not going to Pusan..or just stay in my room.. coz i don't wanna bring any regrets if i really go there..
however, Ja texted me n asked me to join the buke puase with taekwondo members..after that we'll straightaway go to pusan.. n our beloved senior ing hoe with the help of his sweet little girls, tasha, and arina, made us some food.
thank you guys~

after buke puase..went to pusan..the members are getting ready for their test.. ester asked me to memorize taeguk 5.. i said im not taking the test.. she's like..laa..y? i tot u're gonna grading tonite..i just said im not ready.. well i guess im really not ready.. coz when i tried the taeguk .. i made a lot of mistakes esp in stances.. so..its final..no grading for me tonite.. just need a bit more time to train..

during the green belt grading, sir called me suddenly and he asked me to partner with a girl..do the 2step-sparring n free sparring.. it feels weird..its been a while since masum that i do sparring..next, ester commented me on my blocks n punches.. she said i need to be more firm in those.. my sparring are ok tho.. so..i have to train more for the next grading or else i wont pass the test..have some nice chat with some1 i longed to see n talk to..just some1 i respect a lot..

after the session, we went to village view..makan2..sate ayam n daging..ester belanja.. whoah.. tenkiu ester.. now im in my room..getting ready to bed.. thinking of tomorrow..a better tomorrow..

dayat,tasha and i dont remember that guy's name.. congratulations on ur promotion for black belt!!.. i'll be the next one..wait..

* hopefully Jay is doing well n healthy..i miss you..

done with LI exec summary

its done n I've sent it to the office just now..
its such a relief that i dont have to think about it anymore..

moving on to next assignment
1. Sustainability in civil engineering work
handwriting, 4-5 pages, due 16 sept
2. Write about Malaysian Water Association and its affiliations
handwriting, 2 pages, due in 2 weeks..im guessing its after raya la..

feel so lazy to start doing those, but iono, it takes me some times huh..

*still in dilemma whether to take the taekwondo grading test or not.. feels like im not ready
maybe i should wait till im ready then..aigoo..2 more tests left to get the black belt..

i'm missing Jay~ T___T

heartbroken~

is this bacause of GD's heartbreaker?
its like a bad omen huh?
no i dont blame GD for this of course.. 100% NOT GD's fault
its their fault (anti fans-k nets)

okay the thing is :
2 days ago, i found out about Jay's myspace comment sayin - korea is gay..i hate koreans
the whole thing bout this has blowed up k-nets anger coz it hurts their koreans pride..
they even put up a petition to sent Jay back to America and worst, a petition to ask Jay to commit suicide!!! are the out of their mind? sheesh..
yesterday JYP said he won't send Jay away.. Jay's still in 2PM..
today.. Jay announced in a fancafe saying he's quitting 2PM..
next thing i found out, he's going back to his hometown, Seattle, USA .. well he already left this evening..

hella is this a conspiracy? like Jay used to say before..
it happened in just 4 days and now he left.. being an ex-member of 2PM..

aigoo.. why is the world so cruel?
the myspace comment was 4 years ago..why mind bringing it up? he was all alone in korea, still not used to koreans culture n all.. and gay doesnt mean homo.. its just an expression you idiot!!
i know what he did was wrong but why cant they forgive him?
im even more angry when the fans/ex anti fans-suddenly-turning-fans were crying n begging him not to leave.. ( i mean those who cursing n mad at him at first ) not HOTTEST.. HOTTEST will always support Jay no matter what.. how could they treated him badly and the next thing they know they want him back? come on, get a life!!!

im so mad that i couldnt do my LI report well..luckily i only have to edit it a bit here and there..
and i cried (i still couldnt believe he left) and i cant listen to 2PM songs or watch their vid anymore.. its too painful.. thinking of Toshio cried and fainted when he left, it devastated..
he trained hard for 4 years and it took only 4 days to bring him down.. T_____T

but i believe in him..he will come back..
i'll wait for you, Jay..
"lets walk together"
"7-1=0"
"2PM is not 7, they are 1"

im having muscle pain in stomach because of last nite training, its kinda shock to my body coz i havent been training for a while since LI.. aigoo..

hopefully tomorrow will be a better day~
HWAITING!!

What Happened Today..(friday)

ilustri semata2..ade gak la gmbr yg betul..

heee..
ak sedang tido.

720 am..wake up call by arina..
"kak, jadi x nk training ni?"
aku yg masih mamai.. "huh?"
"ktorg kat dg ni..saye n salman.."
aku jawab.."erm..ok2"
arina:"kak datang taw"
aku: "ok2..ak siap jap"


hua..ngntoknye..
then call ja..dia pon bru bgn..huhu..
so ktorg siap2 n gerak same g DG..

kat DG ktorg warm up then, saye g lari pecut nek bukit..nk mantapkan kaki kunun..
hee..nk kick lebih kuat..
then ktorg practice taeguk..
smpai kol 945 +-..
then dpt msg dr tia..

"im going to Alamanda..wanna join me?"
huahaha..mestila nak..
siap2..mandi n all..kol 103o gitu g ofis kolej jap..settlekan some urusan..
round 11 tia smpai..amik najah kt umah..g alamanda..
kat alamanda..bli brg..tgk movie, makan..
ktorg tgk cter jackie chan..shinjuku pe tah..
berat sket cter tu..agak saket kepala la..haha..
kol 530 balik then rilek2 jap..solat sume..

kol 810 g pusan..ade grading tkwndo..
huhu..
cuak seh..takut lupe taeguk..
n td saye jd photographer ..arina yg soh coz dia grading nk nek itam..
so jd cmni la..


haha..setelah smpai turn saye grading..huhu..berdebar2..
ade wat silap sket la..time lower block saye terbuat outer block..
tp overall ok la..
master ben wong pon ckp arini mostly sume org ok..ade improvement dr dulu..huhu..
alhamdulillah berjaya dapatkan belt RED!!!!

haha..ade gaye x..kena pecahkan plate tu kalo nak nek itam..aish..the smile on my face shouldnt be there..x macho la..

say bye2 to this blue belt..pasni red belt da..


pastu lepak2 ngn taiko..huahaha..kat mapley..



balik je dr mapley..mandi solat..then tido..

bgn study hydraulic!!!!
final paper on monday!! good luck!!



credits to.. JiYong aka GD, Jaejoong n Yunho..heee..i used their photos..