Dysfunctional Me

im getting more n more strange
im going insane~
haha..
credit to cinema bizarre-->luv u strify n kiro!! yu,shin n romeo too~~

yup im sick and tired of this so-called life..
Am I the only one who finds no peace?

urgh!! bosan..xnak wat pape..
nk rilek je xboleh ke?
asek mghadap asimen jek~
lecturer pon asek nk bagi..bagi n bagi..
WE~
its all for ur own good..
so wat je lah..

im missing J thp max!!
damn!! bile nk comeback ni?

..being avoided..xsuke la..jgn mcm ni..cant we be just like how we used to be?hmm..

ish dak ni..if u wanna see me..come n meet me~dont just say it..aish..

i guess.. this is the real dysfunctional me~~

dear A

my dear A,who is currently in negeri P, Malaysia of coz..
dunno if u read this..nah..u wont..
u even barely log on into ur YM n FB..
so u wouldnt even know my blog la kan..

aish..
i tried but i couldnt
u didnt treat me as how i wanted u to treat me..
now that u r far away from me,
i wanna miss u but im tired of u and i just cant hate u..
if u could just disappear..then just do so..
n never appear again in my life..

but if u really appreciate this so-called-friendship..
or whatever relationship u think we're on..
well u know u should..
please treat me nicely..
if u really dont wanna care about me then just dont

p/s: sorry for the times i that ignored u..u should know why..or should i tell u? no,coz im gonna looked so pathetic..n i dun want to..

argh!!.rase lega sket ati bile da tulis ni wlpn dia xbace..
dunno if i should hate u or miss u~

Issues

suddenly feels like wanna post this up.. coz me n my heart we got issues..really..

Oooh, yeah,
Sometimes I feel like I'm going out of my mind,
Boy the way you do me is a damn crime,
But then you smile at me and it's alright,
With you there ain't any in between...

Every time that I walk out the door
I tell myself I can't take it no more
There's a part of me won't let you go
I keep saying yes when my minds' saying' no...

Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues.

It's so hard; boy you leave me hangin' for so long
You empty out my love until it's all gone
You change the words but still it's the same song
I'm tired of the melody

Change my number and throw out your clothes
But my feelings for you, it still show
I keep building a wall round my heart
But then I see you it all falls apart...

Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you (damn I wish)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide)
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues.

Why fight it, (why fight it)
Can't hide it (can't hide it)
Truth is I think I like it
Confusion, illusions (confusion, illusions)
Still I don't know which way to go,

Me and my heart we got issues
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you

Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (We got to work this thing out)
Damn I wish that I could resist you (I don't know)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide if I )
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (issues)
We got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues (me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (we got to which way to go)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (I don't know)

my latest obsession

haha..
YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

Jang Geun Suk as Hwang Tae Kyung kyaaaa..hot
Park Shin Hye as Go Mi Nam / Go Mi Nyu cutie...
Lee Hong Ki as Jeremy funny...
Jung Yong-hwa as Kang Shin Woo sweet..

im loving this drama..every episodes..
the ost are the best~ haha..

声をきかせて Koe wo kikasete

声をきかせて
[Lyrics] 山本成美･Robin
[Composition] Teddy

さっきまでの雨はもう上がって
ｱｽﾌｧﾙﾄ漂う街の匂い
ねえそっちも もう晴れてるよね
西から回復するって
朝は苦手な君だからねえ
毎日ちゃんと起きられてるかい?
そんなこと未だに心配してるよ

広がる空はそう自由で
何も変わってないけれど
隣に今はただ…ただ君がいないだけ

声をきかせて
素直になればきっと
分かりあえるはずさ
ｺｺﾛを開いて
声をきかせて
歩いてきた道は僕たちにとってきっと
大切なSTEPさ その未来への

君と初めて出逢ったのはそう
ちょうど今くらいの季節だったね
ﾗｲﾄｱｯﾌﾟした街並みが
きれいに輝いていた
泣き虫な君はあれからよく
僕の肩におでこをのっけて
泣いてたね その温もりに
無性に触れたくなる

人は誰でもそれぞれに悩みを抱えて生きる
壊れそうな心を必死に抱きしめて

声をきかせて
優しくなればもっと
愛し合えるはずさ
目をそらさないで
声をきかせて
絡みつく不安も寂しさも越えて行こう
今のこの気持ちが絆になる

Yeah, Since you went away hasn't been the same
In my heart all I got is pain
Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain
Sunlight moonlight you lit my life realize in the night
while love shines bright
Cant let you go we're meant forever baby let me know

This past without you, Can't forget you
Letting me be the cloud hanging above me
Raining on me missing you touch
Nights get long and it's hard to clutch
We're apart breaks my heart
Its all for the best girl you're my world
In time my love unfurls
He will then wait for you girl

声をきかせて
素直になればきっと
分かりあえるはずさ
ｺｺﾛを開いて
声をきかせて
歩いてきた道は僕たちにとってきっと
大切なSTEPさ その未来への

Sakki made no ame wa mou agatte
Asufaruto tadayou machi no nioi
Nee socchi mo mou hareteruyone
Nishi kara kaifuku suru

Asa wa nigate na kimi dakaranee
Mainichi chanto okirareterukai?
Sonna koto imada ni shinpai shiteruyo

Hirogaru sora wa mou jiyuu de
Nani mo kawatte naikeredo
Tonari ni ima wa tada
Tada kimi ga inaidake

Koe wo kikasete
Sunao ni nareba kitto
Wakariaeru hazu sa
Kokoro wo hiraite
Koe wo kikasete
Aruitekita michi wa
Bokutachi ni totte kitto
Taisetsu na stepu sa
Sono mirai e no

Kimi to hajimete deatta no wa sou
Choudo ima kurai no kisetsu dattane
Raito appu shita machinami ga
Kirei ni kagayaiteita

Nakimushi na kimi wa arekara yoku
Boku no kata ni odeko wo nokkete
Naitetane sono nukumori ni
Mushou ni furetakunaru

Hito wa dare demo sorezore ni Nayami wo kakaete ikiru
Kowaresou na kokoro wo hisshi ni dakishimete

Koe wo kikasete
Yasashi kunareba motto
Aishiaeru hazu sa
Me wo sora sanaide
Koe wo kikasete
Karamitsuku fuan mo
Samishisa mo koeteikou
Ima no kono kimochi ga
Kizuna ni naru

Yeah, Since you went away hasn't been the same
In my heart all I got is pain
Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain
Sunlight moonlight you lit my life realize in the night
While love shines bright
Can't let you go
We're meant for forever baby let me know

Days passed without you, can't forget you
Letting me be the cloud hanging above me
Raining on me missing you touch
Nights get long and it's hard to clutch
We're apart, breaks my heart
Its all for the best girl you're my world
In time my love unfurls
'Til then I'll wait for you girl

Koe wo kikasete
Sunao ni nareba kitto
Wakariaeru hazu sa
Kokoro wo hiraite
Koe wo kikasete
Aruitekita michi wa
Bokutachi ni totte kitto
Taisetsu na stepu sa
Sono mirai e no

The rain just now has stopped
The smell of asphalt is floating around the city
Hey, over there too, the weather is fine already right?
For the weather has cleared up from the west (***)

Since you’re not a morning person
Everyday, will you be able to wake up properly?
I’m still worried about things like that

With freedom like the spreading sky
Nothing is changing, but
Next to me now, it's just… it’s only just that you aren't here

Let me hear your voice
If we become honest, surely
We'll be able to understand each other
Please open your heart
Let me hear your voice
The path we have come is, for us, definitely
An important STEP to that future

The first time I met you was
Around this season right?
The lit up street
Glowed so beautifully

You were a crybaby, after that you often
Laid your forehead on my shoulder
Crying right?
Wanting to feel my warmth for nothing

Everyone lives, carrying their own troubles
Desperately holding his broken heart

Let me hear your voice
If we become more kind
We'll be able to love each other
Don’t avert your eyes
Let me hear your voice
Let's get over those entwined anxieties and loneliness
The feelings of this moment become our bond

Yeah, Since you went away hasn't been the same
In my heart all I got is pain
Could it be that I played a game to lose you, I can't maintain
Sunlight, moonlight you lit my life realize in the night
Why love shines bright
Cant let you go we were meant forever baby let me know

This past without you, can't forget you
Let me be the cloud hanging above me
Raining on me missing you touch
Nights get long and it's hard to clutch
We're apart, breaks my heart
Its all for the best girl you're my world
In time my love unfurls
Till then wait for you girl

Let me hear your voice
If we become honest, surely
We'll be able to understand each other
Please open your heart
Let me hear your voice
The path we have come is, for us, surely
An important STEP to that future

stress management

picture credit:www.notquitenigella.com

Healthy ways to relax and recharge

Go for a walk. Spend time in nature. Call a good friend. Sweat out tension with a good workout. Write in your journal. Take a long bath. Light scented candle

Savor a warm cup of coffee or tea. Play with a pet. Work in your garden. Get a massage. Curl up with a good book. Listen to music. Watch a comedy

tired of waiting

hottests said that JPY is the one who is tired of waiting coz hottests will never be tired of waiting for Jay.. so true.. i lke it..way to go hottests!!

me actually tired of waiting too..not for jay but for my laptop..
i had sent my laptop for repair since 9th october and i just got it on 6th of november..
its a long wait..but i grateful that i can actually use it again n no need to buy a new one..
hang on will you my laptop..till im done with these degree study..i love you..hee..

btw, the design project presentation was done..after all the hard work had been put in the project..
now i can rest/rilex for a while..there's still lots of assignment tho but at least the big one had done..the rest are juz assignment..so chill n rilex..haha..

this weekend, all the sumandakz are gone for thier rm600 mission (the car survey)..in Johor n Pahang..leaving me and ecah here at UKM..huhu//sedey..xpe2..since my abah didnt allowed me to join them..im not going la..well..we should obey to our parents rite..hehe..
another thing is aska had treat me at mcD yesterday..owh..im sooo sorry bout the fries..guess i need to do somthing bout that..maybe blanje dia fries.. we're equal now..no more iou..

im wishing all the sumandakz are doing well n hopefully they will be alrite..
im waitng for you guys to come back safely..

XOXO..
gossipman's singer's fan..