masih lagi sobs..

aigoo..
ari2  rase nak nanges ni..ape kena?
selalu kalo period pon..xlah camni..
ni melampau punya mood swing..
aish..

things are getting difficult n harder..
is there is a day i won't worry at all?
can i juz be calm..?
i worry things a lot..*sigh*

i knew myself..
im not that conscious and alert..
i will usually stumbled upon something..and fell..
bump into something at my head..
and get hurt..
this is me..
i dont know how should i do to be better..
same goes to my driving skill..
im not a good driver i admit it..
once i made a mistake..i turn to be shaking all inside..
even though it might not seen from outside..
people might think i dont really care but i do..
only i knew what i felt..
its not like i dont appreciate 'my mom's but also mine' car
i do.. but things turned out unexpectedly..
plus i am this kind of person..
ignorant..n all..
so things are getting worse..*sigh*
i dont deserve a car after all..
i should just take the bus going to classes..

and yes i do worry a lot..
those unimportant matter will also be my burden..*sigh again*

i dont know who else to talk to..but this is the only way i can tell my feelings..
i dont really tell people what i really feel..
they might know by my face..and they mightn't know too..
and will they care too?
im a fake in front of everybody..
cuz im not a happy-go-lucky person..
i wanna be one..
i tried to but its hard..
but i dont want to be this sulky-sloppy-gloomy girl either..
but the truth is..this is really me..
im not friendly..but i wanna make friend..
im not happy but i wanna be happy..
there are so many 'not' in me..
and i want the opposite..
can i?
well i am a person with no expression i guess..
people can only tell if im tired thats all..
nothing else..cuz thats the only expression i will always wear..
notice it?

my mind wander a lot today..
im lost in my own world..
im not hearing what are people talking about..
cuz im totally not into it---referring to kursus kawen
balik tido lagi bagus..
cuz sgt2 ngntok..*sigh lagi*

i miss my frens.. tqa, hawe, dewi, anis..
sume jkasians..
nak balik umah..
wanna hug my mom n dad..
nak kuar tgk movie ngn abg n adik..
nak men ngn muna n ihsan..
nak kasi mimi (kucing) makan..
nak berhenti rase nak nanges..sebab memang nak nanges je..xmo tahan2 lagi..
(camne nak p wat phD kat korea nih?)

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again..
wanna share with my readers..
Mad World-

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very, very
Mad world..


adios~